Just a girl...

in need of a Savior. Yep, that's me. If I could pick a statement to define me, I think that's what I would choose. When I was 9, I had the privilege of asking Jesus to come into my heart and take over my life. Even at the young age of 9... I realized I just needed a Savior... unfortunately I didn't live like it. I've always been somewhat of a tough person and I like to do things on my own, my own way. Being 'saved' isn't my idea of a fairytale. I'd rather be scoring the winning basket in a game... that's my kind of story. I lived a lot of my life like that. It was what I want, when I want it... and it was usually now. Life was about what I could do and how quickly or good I could do it. Everything was a competition and if it wasn't, I would find a way to make it that way. I felt like being 'saved' meant I was weak... and the last thing I wanted to be was weak. There's nothing wrong with ambition in life, but there comes a point where we all have to realize that we all need saving. I was a Christian for 14 years before I really understood that I was just a girl who's in need of a Savior. Instead of feeling like the world was against me and I was fighting my way to the top, I found out that Jesus chose to save me... and had to die to do so. Of course I knew the story, on paper and in my head I knew it all. It was a heart issue... I had to feel it. I had to understand truly just what that Savior had done for me... for only me. I had to get (and am still learning everyday... right, Suz?) that having to be saved doesn't make me weak... it makes me strong... because in my weakness and in my vulnerability (I know, I hate it, too) then he is strong. I will go back to the verse over and over in 2 Corinthians 12... for when I am weak... then I am strong. At the end of the day... we're all just boys and girls in need of a Savior. Instead of being defined or represented by jobs or status or anything else of this world... lets just simply be girls and boys... living this life one day to another... knowing that we are nothing without our incredible redeeming Savior.